So, end of August through the beginning of October I was having a really really hard time. Feeling super down for no good reason whatsoever. When I've been depressed in the past it has always been triggered by something going on in my life. This time, not so much. I was just feeling like poo all the time, no matter what I did, even when I really should have been having fun.
So, I went to my doctor, and I got some brain meds (fluoxetine, to be exact). I've been giving it a while to figure outmy final verdict on what I think about them. And what I think is, why didn't someone give me these when I was much much younger?
I don't feel different, I just feel normal and not depressed. There are still issues I need to address personally and emotionally, etc. The difference is that I actually feel like I have the energy to do that effectively.
I don't know I always thought meds were taking the easy way out, or that they would change my personality. I don't think that's the case, though. I'm still me, just less emotionally whacked out. There's research that suggests unless you actually have the chemical problems that cause depression, this type of medication doesn't actually do anything, and when you do, it just corrects the problem.
The amount better that I feel makes me wonder if I've been at least mildly depressed most of the time since I was 13? Except for when I was worse. In any event, meds are good.
